No one will tell me anything.~ from Hap and Hazard and the End of the World by Diane DeSandersThe world is a mystery to a child. Adults are the most mysterious of all.
I once wrote a poem about how I loved a child's "fragile questionings." I remembered that line while reading Hap & Hazard and the End of the World.
Most adults don't want to answer a child's questions, especially if the question threatens to upset the web of protection adults spin around a child. We tell them to believe in Santa Claus, in the Tooth Fairy, in the Easter Bunny--even when other children reveal they are not real.
I remember being horribly embarrassed when a Third-Grade boy explained that there is no Tooth Fairy. Too late--I had already shared the silver dollar I found under my pillow, proudly exclaiming it was from the Tooth Fairy. And I remember how our son pretended to believe in Santa Claus because it was expected.
The girl in this book pushes adults to tell her the truth. She desperately wants to understand the world and her life.
The book shares the loneliness of a girl who does not fit in."It seems there is something wrong with me," she cries out, "other people do not appear to be having this problem...other kids seem to know what to do and join in." What's wrong with me, she wonders. Oh, I remember feeling that way after a move when everything was so foreign, right down to the playground games.
When adults have problems, we think that ignorance protects the children. What is wrong with Daddy? the girl asks. He was off to war during her first years. He returns a bitter, angry man. How can her parents explain what they don't even understand themselves? The horror of war and the blasted bodies of comrades in arms, and the horrible pain of mutilation and the months of rebuilding what once was a strong and young body? Being crippled, self-medicating?
Set in the post-WWII years, so many things the girl observes were familiar. Vivid details of lipsticked cigarettes and willow trees, which were also in my childhood yard. Make-believe stories about The Girl recalling my own make-believe stories about being an orphan in Scotland or the star of the Nancy Show. The girl's mother retreats to her sewing room, a feeling I know well.
There is humor in the novel.
I recently realized that grown-ups don't know what you're doing if they're not looking at you. Although you have to watch out for the sides of their eyes. ~from Hap and Hazard at the End of the World by Diane DeSanders
And a horrible scene when an older boy abuses her trust and admiration.
There is a change in the universe. There are no more witches and goblins out there. There is no Blue Fairy. The world is plain and flat now, more gray, the mystery and brilliance gone out of it And all of the darkness is inside of me.~ from Hap and Hazard and the End of the World by Diane DeSanders
The novel left me with an ache.
I received a copy of the book from the publisher in exchange for a fair and unbiased review.
Learn more about the author and book at
http://vol1brooklyn.com/2018/01/09/revisiting-the-post-war-moment-diane-desanders-on-writing-hap-and-hazard-and-the-end-of-the-world/
including the author reading from the novel at
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9maS7Vn1hgs&feature=youtu.be
Haop & Hazard at the End of the World
by Diane DeSanders
Bellevue Literary Press
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