Silence is a Sense by Layla AlAmaar

"I don't know how to explain to her that I am cornered by memories, caged in my recollection. I feel persecuted by the things I remember and by what my mind chooses to hide from me.~from Silence is a Sense by Layla AlAmmar

Everyone wants a story. A narrative with meaning. The doctors. The officials. The contact at a magazine who publishes her writing. 

She is recognized as 'other', Arab, Muslim. She is a refugee in England. People fear her. Or, they want to know things she holds close, the people lost and the atrocities of war and her escape across Europe. The experiences that left her enveloped by silence.

Trauma took her voice. Communicating only in the written word, she becomes "The Voiceless." 

The only reasonable response was to fill myself up with silence.~from Silence is a Sense by Layla AlAmmar

She looks out the windows of her apartment and observes the occupants of the other apartments. She knows their secrets. But she keeps apart until a horrendous crime evokes a response that frees her.

Layla AlAmmar's novel Silence is a Sense brilliantly delves into the soul of a woman who has lost everything, first by the war that destroyed her world, and then by her harrowing flight across borders, only to find there is no safe harbor even in freedom. 

Edgar Allan Poe's fable Silence informs the work, the narrator committing it to memory. "My heart pounds to the rhythm of his cadence," she thinks as she recites it in her head.

Front-piece in Vol. Seven of the 1904 Commemorative Edition of The Works of Edgar Allan Poe

I picked up my grandfather's set of Poe to read the fable and noted images that appear in AlAmmar's novel. Poe describes a place where giant water lilies shriek in a yellow river, and forests quake in windless skies, and a crimson moon lights the view. A being in desolation is subjected to beating rain and roaring hippopotami, then by a profound silence by the Demon who tells the tale. The man hurriedly flees in terror.

The fable speaks to the narrator who has also been terrorized and left in silence.

For AlAmmar's protagonist, silence is the only sane reaction to atrocity. We don't need detailed descriptions of what she endured, for her reaction tells us all we need to know. 

What do we see when we look at refugees, immigrants, people who look different from us, or who worship differently from us? Do we think of their legacy of losses? 

Our immigrant ancestors kept their stories quiet, they did not tell us of the death camps or the burned villages, the rape and torture when they were powerless. We wrap these things in silence.

We demand stories and hope to hear pretty tales, happy endings. 

At the end of the novel, our heroine speaks her name, has found her voice. There is hope of healing. 

I received a free ARC from the publisher in exchange for a fair and unbiased review.

Silence Is a Sense

by Layla AlAmmar
Algonquin Books
Pub Date: March 16, 2021
ISBN: 9781643750262
hard cover $25.95 (USD)

from the publisher

“Lyrical, moving, and revealing."~Tracy Chevalier, bestselling author of Girl with a Pearl Earring

A transfixing and beautifully rendered novel about a refugee’s escape from civil war—and the healing power of community.

A young woman sits in her apartment, watching the small daily dramas of her neighbors across the way. She is an outsider, a mute voyeur, safe behind her windows, and she sees it all—the sex, the fights, the happy and unhappy families. Journeying from her war-torn Syrian homeland to this unnamed British city has traumatized her into silence, and her only connection to the world is the column she writes for a magazine under the pseudonym “the Voiceless,” where she tries to explain the refugee experience without sensationalizing it—or revealing anything about herself.

Gradually, though, the boundaries of her world expand. She ventures to the corner store, to a bookstore and a laundromat, and to a gathering at a nearby mosque. And it isn’t long before she finds herself involved in her neighbors’ lives. When an anti-Muslim hate crime rattles the neighborhood, she has to make a choice: Will she remain a voiceless observer, or become an active participant in a community that, despite her best efforts, is quickly becoming her own?

Layla AlAmmar, a Kuwaiti-American writer and brilliant student of Arab literature, delivers here a complex and fluid book about memory, revolution, loss, and safety. Most of all, Silence is a Sense reminds us just how fundamental human connection is to survival.

About the Author

Growing up in Kuwait, I often – some might say too often – found solace in the pages of a book; and if it was a really good book, it would soon become more of a best friend—lovingly read over and over again.

I also began writing at a very early age, from poems to articles to bits and pieces of stories, and I always had this vague, ethereal idea of being published one day.

I completed an MSc in Creative Writing from the University of Edinburgh in 2014 and soon after completed my first full-length novel. I began a PhD on the intersection of Arab women’s fiction and literary trauma theory in 2019.

I’ve had short stories published by the Evening Standard, Quail Bell Magazine, Aesthetica Magazine, the St Andrews University Prose Journal, and in the collection Underground: Tales for London (Borough Press 2018). My  story "The Lagoon" was shortlisted for the Aesthetica Magazine Creative Writing Award 2014. I was British Council International Writer in Residence at the Small Wonder Short Story Festival in 2018.

My debut novel, THE PACT WE MADE, which deals with the lives of young women in Kuwait, was published by Borough Press in March 2019. My second novel, SILENCE IS A SENSE, was published in Spring 2021 (Borough/Algonquin).